I am ever so grateful that God knows what He is doing. His plans are so much better than our own. His timing is much better than ours. He allows us to make stupid mistakes . . . that lead to beautiful ends (Romans chapter 8 verse 28 is a verse I have clung to in the midst of being in the depths of despair but have also joyfully relished in when times have felt good).
My greek god and I were discussing, again, the other night how stupid we were to move off campus when we were attending Moody Bible Institute, many moons ago. We had the best apartment on campus. It was tiny but great. Seventh floor facing toward the Hancock building and views of La Salle Street.
Having some good friends of ours move off campus started us thinking maybe we should, too. We were tired of living in a bubble (for those living in a "bubble" right now . . . be content since it won't always be there and bubbles aren't always bad) and we assumed we were going to start extending our family and since we couldn't have kids while living on campus we moved off. Dumb, dumb, dumb.
It was one of, if not the, stupidest mistakes we've ever made. We ended up living far enough away from school that we had to buy a car (we'd assumed we'd take the L but soon realized that brrrrrrr-freezing weather wasn't the funnest to walk a mile or so in to get to the thing) and my health declined. I struggled immensely with my asthma. I became very sick. I became very miserable. Hence, Dan became very miserable. Within a matter of months our belongings were packed up in a truck, our car was sold, and we were headed back to CA.
My greek god never had the opportunity to finish getting his degree studying what really brings him alive, the Bible. I regret that. The man shines when he gets to study and discuss The Word. I still dream of him getting to do that someday.
We kicked ourselves for being so foolish. Had we stayed on campus he would have completed what we went out there for. And maybe we would have become missionaries in the world out yonder, too, as we had planned.
As we had planned.
A few months after returning to our home town the Lord provided Dan with a great career opportunity. God dropped it in his lap. Heating and Air-conditioning was not something he was looking to get into but he needed a job and an apprenticeship opportunity was in his future.
Landing a driver's position lead to the apprenticeship which gave us the financial ability to do something I had longed for for years.
Fostering.
So we did become missionaries. In that the Lord brought the mission field into our home. We became foster parents. The Lord granted the desire of my heart from childhood.
Through doing emergency foster care we were given one of the most amazing little girls I have ever met. Our eldest daughter. She turned six months old around the time Dan would have graduated from Moody had we stayed the course. Had Dan completed his schooling there we never would have gotten our daughter (and time table-wise nor would we have gotten her older brother or her younger brother . . . and we wouldn't have gotten to foster the other little ones either). We might have still gotten to foster and adopt . . . but we would not have gotten the ones we did. And those are the ones I want. Those are my kids.
Thank You, Lord, for allowing us to make such a foolish decision (from a human perspective) so many years ago. You have blessed us immensely and beyond words in the children you have given us. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.
- MB